I almost did it

Today I almost did it. Subconsciously naw scratch that consciously I wanted to do it. One scroll through the contact list one push of a button. I almost did it. It's funny how something so simple breeds complications. What would have been the opening line? Heck knowing you there wouldn't have been one. See I almost did it. I'm not sure if it was fate or common sense that stopped me. Well I guess a combination of both. I honestly almost did it. What did I want? What did I need? How do I feel? All questions that I've yet to answer. Some where out of the blue appears you and not in a physical form. I wonder if you are thinking what I'm thinking and if what we're thinking is true. I was so close and I almost did it.  Space and time has made us somewhat enemies but neither of us will admit it.  Do I apologize or do you simply pretend that what was never existed. Today was much stronger than those previous days and honestly I almost did it. Things might be awkward for reasons we both know to be true. Suppressed feelings only stay suppressed so long then what! Eventually you lose grip of what you were holding on to. Traveling down the path that is oh so familiar to you. I hate to admit it but I almost did it. Just one look at your name and I knew a second longer would have been too long. You would have traveled space and time to appear in this thing called reality. See my thoughts are powerful and believe it or not so are yours. Today was the day that I almost did it. From here on out I have to relinquish the thoughts that drive me to think about you. The thoughts that convinces me it will be fine if I hear from you. The thoughts that lead my actions to find your name in my contact list. Those same thoughts that got me writing this. You see I almost did it. Truth is I almost called you, text you and emailed you. But I'm glad..... I didn't.